Envy.

Even though I say I'm satisfied, I still feel this maddening feeling of envy for others...

'Man I wish I was that lucky.'
'Wow I wish I had that.'
'I want that so bad.'
'Why can't I be like that?'

These thoughts all make me doubt myself. Am I truly as satisfied as I think I am? Is it a natural thing to want more than you have? I think it is. Someone said that it is because we want more, therefore we progress, we evolve, we grow.

So is it all that bad to envy? And is it all that good to be satisfied?

Great men and women have told us: Get what you deserve! Reap your rewards! You need this! Do it for yourself! Make it in life! You are better than that!

Have you wondered just how long you have to do that? When will you stop 'deserving'?

It is then I think... I have a fully equipped body. I have a wonderful family. I have a loving little lady. I have more friends than fingers. I have the opportunity to learn, to grow, to be me.

I am satisfied.